Can we love a person forever?

In less than 8 hours time, my mom will be flying off to Hainan Island..
In less than a week, my dear friend will be getting married to 'The One'

All if not most of my friends have stepped out in the working world, settled down with the right guy and/or planning to move on to the next phase of life.

For quite a significant period of time, I did not truly believe in relationships and love
Committment was like an obligation rather than anything else.
Over the Christmas last year, I officially got attached to my current boyfriend whom i met just over a month.
To him, it was like a 'click' factor.
To me, i probably still can't decipher properly.
To try to set things off right, i decided we should both be truthful to each other in all aspects, something which he agreed upon almost immediately
Since then, we had our squabbles and all
Times when he can really show his cold and harsh nature
Yet things was still alright.

Just slightly a week ago, i discovered my boyfriend was not that truthful
He dated another girl but had hid the fact
He had sent sms to seek for forgiveness to another girl
He had once just walked out of another person's life harshly
I was hurt
He explained. And we are still together.
Yet, still the pain is there, somewhere.

Did this relationship make a turn for the worst? I do not know.
Do i still like him? Yes
Is he still trustable? I do not know.

I've seen how so many guys can lie to their partners like it's not a big deal.
I've also told this to my boyfriend hoping it would not happen to me.
Yet, now i do not know.

Sometimes i realise it is me who is asking for too much
So much so that i can never be satisfied at the end of the day

In this week that my mom is away
I will be experiencing a true blue couple life with my boyfriend
Maybe then, i can make a proper & definite decision

Can we love a person forever?
A question left unanswered.

The power of love exist due to the emotional bonding of two individuals.

The rate of decrease in affection is never comparable or replacable by the continued efforts by a single party

The fear of lost causes one to sink into depression and disappointment, of the once gloomy surroundings with not much of a hope worth looking forward to

The fear of freedom causes one to carry off care via obligation, to ignore what he not desire to see or hear, to deprive the effort of others

In most relationships, it is fear that topples the balance of love. That one party tries to put in too much, unbalanced and unappreciated by the other. To be misunderstood. Especially at times when one realises that he or she is starting to lose the other party and at the same time losing sight of what the future once reckons to behold, the disappointment is such that the other party will never experience or embrace.

The greatest pain is when one succumbs under the great depression, being on the verge of giving up this certain bondage, that the other party actually gladly appreciates it.

I sit here, after a long period of not inputting information here, again tonight thinking about the foolishness of minds. Some says women are 70% made up of water, maybe its 90% for me. Yes, fragility is the word.

I dare not say i know how to love.
I dare not even love anymore.

I really just hope that my special someone will be there to love me and not someone who can just sleep it off in peace as i struggle with my own emotions.

I know how to just let go in the past.
But this time, i just don't know how to.