And I Thought Jan is a Good month

After a mere 28 days of peace and brightness,
I experienced the darkest day of 2009

I submitted the first case of the year since the new year
yet in the worst mood i can ever have

If its not enuff
I sent out a sms to a number which i tot is my secondary friend
only to receive an intimidating call from a woman who proclaimed to be the wife of the person i sms-ed
rudely asking who the fuck am i..
And being in almost the exact lousy mood
it gave me the best chance to reply as rude as i can which i normally will never

Maybe it is better to put the focus on something non-living
like the career
as Career never forsakes u
As long as effort is put in, results are reaped.
Unlike humans

Life is a pretence
As long as we can conceal our true self well enough
We can let people know what we never is
Yet not fake enuff,
a small trigger can unleash the evil monster within us
I activated the trigger
I found out the result
And I am disappointed with it
Totally

I'm like back to half of what i am used to be
Losing hope in life
And losing my appetite
No sleep
No food
No water
for at least the last 12 hours
except for 2 pathetic 雞蛋卷
And now
I have to pretend to eat in the kitchen

P.S. How long does it take for a person to faint from hunger?