On the 29th of December 2008, 7.26am
I can now proudly say I am a graduate
no longer an undergrad
Yes
I have passed my last 3 modules in my schooling life
The stress that accompanied me as i click on the link to my destiny
indescrible
Just last night
I was still harbouring a fear that i would need to repeat something again
No longrr is it about personal shame or dignity
But not knowing how to face my mom should i repeat history yet again
Since then
I have only relieve in my heart now
Rooney doesnt need to help me take form register modules le
I can safely & proudly tell my mom that I no longer am a student
I can officially without excuse step into the world of a working adult
Striving to create that better future i want
The journey in NTU have taken most people 4 years
but 4.5 year for me
Does it matter?
10 years down the road when we look back, who will be bothered?
But in current times
it just meant i wasted half a year more than my peers
I have since then officially joined in the ranks
Stripping off that student image
I hope maturity comes with that as well
To work hard
To earn the first pot of gold
To be serious in relationships
&
To strive to become nearer and nearer to my life goals
Monday, December 29, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Merry Christmas
Happy Christmas Eve, my friends
24th December
A day when most gather with their loved ones
Be it having a dinner, cutting log cake, appreciating fine wine or simply just catching a DVD on the sofa couch,
what matters is the idea of spending it with people who appreciate you
Christmas is the season of sharing
Of Joy, love, laughter
Do brace up
Smile as we see our loved ones
Spread the positive energy
For this season
Let's drop our moody self
&
Party
=)
I love you All , My friends
24th December
A day when most gather with their loved ones
Be it having a dinner, cutting log cake, appreciating fine wine or simply just catching a DVD on the sofa couch,
what matters is the idea of spending it with people who appreciate you
Christmas is the season of sharing
Of Joy, love, laughter
Do brace up
Smile as we see our loved ones
Spread the positive energy
For this season
Let's drop our moody self
&
Party
=)
I love you All , My friends
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
New Phase New Elv
I go around telling people i know that since the day I stepped into NTU
my life has been going downhill
my relationships with people in general have its major screw-ups
my focus was never on my notes
my body was always in a nua-mode slacking away time in hostel
my mind was always about which club to go to on that faithful wednesday night
we always have the cheek to critic the people around us
family
how parents can stop repeating and nagging
friends
how little they give back when you have put in that much unappreciated efforts
loved ones
how fragile human relationships can get
society
how harsh it judges you
like everyone else
i had my fair share of complains, grievances
A finger pointing at others equivilates to 3 pointing at ourselves
I never had been the perfect daughter, friend & lover
But who could?
This is all about growing up
Am i grown up? Nope
But definitely i will
Together with all the darlings around me
Yesterday marked the 1 month of my new life
With a new addition
A new person who made a difference to my life
I idled my past 1 year
scouting so hard for that perfect guy
the one with a stable job, good pay, good family, decent looking, clean background
But in turn
i tried too hard
to change to something i never was
tomorrow is Christmas' Eve
one which i will spend it with someone special
someone i can totally relate to
someone who can totally relate to me
someone whom i need no lies to conceal my identity
someone who i can be totally frank and direct with
someone who says he will make me change my thinking about the fragility of r/s
everytime i feel a wrench in my heart
be it
work
past
family
talking to him always made it seemed much simplier than it already was
To make me able to break out of the fake promise i have been making to myself since secondary days
to appreciate the greens and to have a healthier body
Yes
My plate now looks so much cleaner without the strands of chorophyll filled veggies
The one who did wat none others could
Am i still skeptical as i once said?
I might be
Is he my 25 dream?
It may ... seriously be
Love has always been a greatly mis-used word
or so i strongly believed to be
Did i say i love him?
No i din
Did he say he loves me?
No he din
And i'm glad
for what's the whole point if it's said to mean mis-use?
As for the probability of a future
Only time will tell
Thanks, Eric
my life has been going downhill
my relationships with people in general have its major screw-ups
my focus was never on my notes
my body was always in a nua-mode slacking away time in hostel
my mind was always about which club to go to on that faithful wednesday night
we always have the cheek to critic the people around us
family
how parents can stop repeating and nagging
friends
how little they give back when you have put in that much unappreciated efforts
loved ones
how fragile human relationships can get
society
how harsh it judges you
like everyone else
i had my fair share of complains, grievances
A finger pointing at others equivilates to 3 pointing at ourselves
I never had been the perfect daughter, friend & lover
But who could?
This is all about growing up
Am i grown up? Nope
But definitely i will
Together with all the darlings around me
Yesterday marked the 1 month of my new life
With a new addition
A new person who made a difference to my life
I idled my past 1 year
scouting so hard for that perfect guy
the one with a stable job, good pay, good family, decent looking, clean background
But in turn
i tried too hard
to change to something i never was
tomorrow is Christmas' Eve
one which i will spend it with someone special
someone i can totally relate to
someone who can totally relate to me
someone whom i need no lies to conceal my identity
someone who i can be totally frank and direct with
someone who says he will make me change my thinking about the fragility of r/s
everytime i feel a wrench in my heart
be it
work
past
family
talking to him always made it seemed much simplier than it already was
To make me able to break out of the fake promise i have been making to myself since secondary days
to appreciate the greens and to have a healthier body
Yes
My plate now looks so much cleaner without the strands of chorophyll filled veggies
The one who did wat none others could
Am i still skeptical as i once said?
I might be
Is he my 25 dream?
It may ... seriously be
Love has always been a greatly mis-used word
or so i strongly believed to be
Did i say i love him?
No i din
Did he say he loves me?
No he din
And i'm glad
for what's the whole point if it's said to mean mis-use?
As for the probability of a future
Only time will tell
Thanks, Eric
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Rusty Friends Not-so-Rusty Life
This is a LONG post about my rusty friends & my new life update.
When Rusty Friends are mentioned
we know who we are talking about
the most recent time we met
it was the picnic in Sentosa
even before that,
perhaps it's the time we had Astons on my birthday celebration
correct me if i'm wrong & my memory is failing me.
So technically,
we meet Shan... once every 3 months or so?
This is the coming 11 years of friendship
Since the first day in Amkss Sec 1/4.
It's "destined" we will know and cross each other's path
If u believed in afinity, this is afinity
In Chinese, 《緣》
I think back hard...
My first friend in 1/4 was Mel Lee
then i forgot who was the 2nd.. the 3rd..
And by the time i came to know Lingoo, was coz we were all seating in the back row with Kuan Horng & Kenny & the swinging see-saw alike noticeboard.
Shan? I forgot. oops.
Maybe the link came from our common Bowen friends & our common tuition class @ AMK central.
Remember Mr Winson? Ms Oh? The guy named... Joven?
We were never in the same ECA(or CCA)
NPCC, Girl Guides, Netball.
I think the only time we got closer
was a certain project that we had to do
And we were in a group
I remembered this Higher Chinese project 《盧家倫理》
We did sth about 孔子,孟子,老子, blah blah blah..
At my old house, with Shan's cousin or whoever's laptop
Using lighters or stoves or matches (i cant remb..) to burn edges of papers to beautify the presentation...
I still remembered the Yishun Gang, with Lingoo part of it as well
So my going home buddy.. was never her anyway
Got Shan anot? Since we both AMK kids, i can't remember..
Then it was Upper Sec.
3/1
3/3
3/5
What an even spread.
The only time we sat together in a class
That's Higher Chinese
My Upper Sec life
was more of NPCC, Billabong, Mamboo, Big Bags, Mahjong, Pool
I had my own cliques in my own Class
and 4/3 was super bonded
Alot of things den, was never about my Rusty Friends
except the after-school Sports session =)
and also the Ice-skate sessions..
Just one week plus ago,
I recieved an sms from Lingoo saying she actually found the movie ticket stubs of 27 Jan 2001 , Vertical Limits which we watched with Siah Jen, Weiliang (shld be Weiming right?) & Diwei (it was at causeway point cinema.. rite..)
That was in Sec 4
When i started to.. like someone.
Feeling excited to be watching a same show
Sitting beside each other in a cinema.. but also paiseh to watch with only 2 person so got to drag a whole load of ppl along..
Those were the times.
Den we graduated.
I was in my JC life
continuing my school uniform period... new friends.. new environment
studying more Math & more Sciences...
They went on to working... coz Poly life starts only half year back..
Shan was mainly in the Cosmetics & Fragrances line.. for a long while.. even during her Poly life in Ngee Ann..
Lingoo... I remembered Value$$ & Popular @ HDB Hub..
Then went on with TP Design.
I remembered that we had lesser time for each other
But we had communicated through emails, remember??
The age when watever we speak or even writing thru emails... filled with vulgarities..
Then things started to cork up in our life
I started to get attached or hitched at different points in my life
That part of screwed-ups i wun mentioned again..
Shan had her busy schedules
Lingoo... her share of super down times..
With school, fucked up profs, family.. blah blah blah..
Then it was University for me.. den Shan ..
Work for Lingoo...
Changing in and out of jobs
Finally settling in PST
And although the Ups & Downs, i know u enjoyed it at PST
And truly u changed while being there for that 1 yr +.. Amd i dunno what else to say but deep down feeling happy for you to have found a serious job with fun colleagues that's as crap or worst than you...
As for Shan,
the overloading and ang-moh culture @ SMU did not made u succumb to being a slanging freak, which is good...
But your freaking busy schedule.. is really scary..However with that tough and competitive environment that you are in... What's new?
And in the last couple of years,
my 2 Rusty Friends..
it hurts me to know and see that as we grow older..
Our bodies start to crank up and gives us problems..
I see it and i feel it
But i may not be one who can express that concern as well as others.
Yet everytime i know sth is not right..
I pray (to 大伯公!) that things will be alrite..
As we all put on our braces one after the other..
Again a common identity..
Since Day One
We mentioned we wanted to get a photoshoot to lock down this memory
Yet till today, we have not done so..
Shan may have forgotten but we have prompted u on Monday again, remember?
I truly, really want to get it done and trust me, evertime i pass a photoshoot studio i always take a 2nd look.
I agree that i 重色親友
And i know it
from the very starting of everything
That is my personality
I think i can't deny it anymore
But to the 2 Rusty Friends..
My life minus away... Guys..
I'm being very frank
You are the top priority
I may not be updated with the most recent happenings of your lives
But anytime if i receive a call that you really need me, I will be there
Maybe I'm not so sensitive a person
Just like we all are.
We are never perfect as we all knows
But as a Libra & an Only child..
I cherish my friends. ALOT.
As for my recent life
As my friends would already know
Yes
There is a new guy
Hopefully someone that i can be serious with
Hopefully someone that can make me become serious with as well
When Rusty Friends are mentioned
we know who we are talking about
the most recent time we met
it was the picnic in Sentosa
even before that,
perhaps it's the time we had Astons on my birthday celebration
correct me if i'm wrong & my memory is failing me.
So technically,
we meet Shan... once every 3 months or so?
This is the coming 11 years of friendship
Since the first day in Amkss Sec 1/4.
It's "destined" we will know and cross each other's path
If u believed in afinity, this is afinity
In Chinese, 《緣》
I think back hard...
My first friend in 1/4 was Mel Lee
then i forgot who was the 2nd.. the 3rd..
And by the time i came to know Lingoo, was coz we were all seating in the back row with Kuan Horng & Kenny & the swinging see-saw alike noticeboard.
Shan? I forgot. oops.
Maybe the link came from our common Bowen friends & our common tuition class @ AMK central.
Remember Mr Winson? Ms Oh? The guy named... Joven?
We were never in the same ECA(or CCA)
NPCC, Girl Guides, Netball.
I think the only time we got closer
was a certain project that we had to do
And we were in a group
I remembered this Higher Chinese project 《盧家倫理》
We did sth about 孔子,孟子,老子, blah blah blah..
At my old house, with Shan's cousin or whoever's laptop
Using lighters or stoves or matches (i cant remb..) to burn edges of papers to beautify the presentation...
I still remembered the Yishun Gang, with Lingoo part of it as well
So my going home buddy.. was never her anyway
Got Shan anot? Since we both AMK kids, i can't remember..
Then it was Upper Sec.
3/1
3/3
3/5
What an even spread.
The only time we sat together in a class
That's Higher Chinese
My Upper Sec life
was more of NPCC, Billabong, Mamboo, Big Bags, Mahjong, Pool
I had my own cliques in my own Class
and 4/3 was super bonded
Alot of things den, was never about my Rusty Friends
except the after-school Sports session =)
and also the Ice-skate sessions..
Just one week plus ago,
I recieved an sms from Lingoo saying she actually found the movie ticket stubs of 27 Jan 2001 , Vertical Limits which we watched with Siah Jen, Weiliang (shld be Weiming right?) & Diwei (it was at causeway point cinema.. rite..)
That was in Sec 4
When i started to.. like someone.
Feeling excited to be watching a same show
Sitting beside each other in a cinema.. but also paiseh to watch with only 2 person so got to drag a whole load of ppl along..
Those were the times.
Den we graduated.
I was in my JC life
continuing my school uniform period... new friends.. new environment
studying more Math & more Sciences...
They went on to working... coz Poly life starts only half year back..
Shan was mainly in the Cosmetics & Fragrances line.. for a long while.. even during her Poly life in Ngee Ann..
Lingoo... I remembered Value$$ & Popular @ HDB Hub..
Then went on with TP Design.
I remembered that we had lesser time for each other
But we had communicated through emails, remember??
The age when watever we speak or even writing thru emails... filled with vulgarities..
Then things started to cork up in our life
I started to get attached or hitched at different points in my life
That part of screwed-ups i wun mentioned again..
Shan had her busy schedules
Lingoo... her share of super down times..
With school, fucked up profs, family.. blah blah blah..
Then it was University for me.. den Shan ..
Work for Lingoo...
Changing in and out of jobs
Finally settling in PST
And although the Ups & Downs, i know u enjoyed it at PST
And truly u changed while being there for that 1 yr +.. Amd i dunno what else to say but deep down feeling happy for you to have found a serious job with fun colleagues that's as crap or worst than you...
As for Shan,
the overloading and ang-moh culture @ SMU did not made u succumb to being a slanging freak, which is good...
But your freaking busy schedule.. is really scary..However with that tough and competitive environment that you are in... What's new?
And in the last couple of years,
my 2 Rusty Friends..
it hurts me to know and see that as we grow older..
Our bodies start to crank up and gives us problems..
I see it and i feel it
But i may not be one who can express that concern as well as others.
Yet everytime i know sth is not right..
I pray (to 大伯公!) that things will be alrite..
As we all put on our braces one after the other..
Again a common identity..
Since Day One
We mentioned we wanted to get a photoshoot to lock down this memory
Yet till today, we have not done so..
Shan may have forgotten but we have prompted u on Monday again, remember?
I truly, really want to get it done and trust me, evertime i pass a photoshoot studio i always take a 2nd look.
I agree that i 重色親友
And i know it
from the very starting of everything
That is my personality
I think i can't deny it anymore
But to the 2 Rusty Friends..
My life minus away... Guys..
I'm being very frank
You are the top priority
I may not be updated with the most recent happenings of your lives
But anytime if i receive a call that you really need me, I will be there
Maybe I'm not so sensitive a person
Just like we all are.
We are never perfect as we all knows
But as a Libra & an Only child..
I cherish my friends. ALOT.
As for my recent life
As my friends would already know
Yes
There is a new guy
Hopefully someone that i can be serious with
Hopefully someone that can make me become serious with as well
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