2009 is coming

Was prompted to review and reflect upon my 2008 resolutions yesterday by Ms Lingoo, which puts me to think that in fact, for myself and perhaps for most people, i have set the resolution earlier this year in the first week of January to forget by perhaps even February.

To think back, i remembered that i had this own list of things that i wanted in terms or material, money, career, relationships, family, etc

And through this one year, i have seen how some of our unpredictable happenings would twart our plans that much, or this might be my best excuse.

My orginal plan would be that I would have successfully graduated this July 2008 like all my peers and fully embarked on my chosen career path, that is to be a future financial planner. I used the word future as more certifications are required to be called a "Real" Financial Planner, as what alot of others think.
I had hoped to earn and save, to reach certain financial goals, to be able to go on few trips, to be able to save money to eventually go Europe.

None came true.
FIrst, i couldnt graduate. In my 4 years of University education i have not put even half of my effort into it. I was on track to graduate but things just got pretty screwed up. And therefore, one of the first things on the list of "Things to accomplished" was not fulfilled.

This single fall made me pretty sore for quite a significant period of time, which in turn brought about more failures and screw-ups. I cried. But i had no one to blame. Almost half year down the road, I am now in the midst of examinations again. Again i did not studied hard enough. More understanding, more hope but not necessarily higher confidence. Not graduating would mean no need for any form of graduation trip.

I couldnt earn enough as well as save enough for almost anything. For trip and more trips, for material goods, let alone Europe. I am officially still a part-time insurance agent.

Earlier on this year, i was questioned on why did i join this career, which made me really went back home to think and especially the last few months. Alot of people joined this career for many reasons, like freedom, income, flexibility of time, not needing to be under the pressure of intense office politics. Less than often, a new agent will reply with the answer that he/she joined in order to help people or many other gracious reasons. I agree. Until recently, when i realised that i have not prioritised and done the correct things (first), that when i saw the effects or complications that it has brought to people and my heart wrenching for the first time, i think now i can see the good that this career could provide to people.

I have more ot less concluded business for the year of 2008. 2009 will be a fresh new year, with new initiatives and new attitude.

This year was also my 23rd birthday. Wasnt exactly very pleasing, yet not that devastating.

I told myself that i should really try to fork out some time for my mom. I have totally failed in the first half of the year. Recently, i stay at home much more, but still it wasnt for accompanying her. But it is through the ups and downs of this year that i feel that i love my mom and she is one person who i know will always stand by me, though it have to be after a series of nagging.

Friendships have always been something which i valued as a high priority. Over the years i felt i have not failed as a friend to people. I really try my best, even sometimes hindering my own things to go out to help a friend. But it is in this one year, which i feel that i have been a failure as a friend.

Relationships.
Was in part of my resolution in 2008. Not accomplished. So far, in my life, there is only 2 person termed as "Good & decent".
And since 2>0 => it is a good news

There may be 101 things i need to change or fine-tune about myself. But i will. Maybe slowly, but surely. I treat this as an entry to reflect slightly upon myself and i sure hope this will guide me to setting a better range of resolutions for 2009.

E'nuff said.
Back to the books.

Work hard for 2009.