intersection

there are still things i want to blog about

my phuket trip - which i am still editting the photos
my movie - the Dark Knight , and my lessons learnt

but all that gotta wait

_______________________________

have you ever did something out of kindness?
and got took granted for?

have you ever asked something out of concern?
and got someone irritated?

have you ever asked a question, not replied, ask a 2nd time?
and got scolded?

have you ever been an emotional punching bag?
one which others vent their frustrations on?

t.h.i.n.k.

being nice does not mean i can be not treated as an equal
being tolerant does not mean i can be not treated like a friend

in certain times,
asking is to find opportunity to offer a help
but to get slammed back
how would it feel?

and if i need somebody, 谁会确定在?

in times like this,
at least i have that piece of the rainbow
thanks.
Sihui

E.M.O

Everyone is @ Convocation.
I'm at home

Sms have been coming in since yesterday night
Asking if I'm morning session.. asking what time i'll be there...
But i wun be there
I cant be there

Worst still
Calls are coming in since just now.

Sucks.

i think i am not dat dumb

Since my words & actions can be brushed off,
i guess my blog can be too

Well done Elv
to make people
sick
irritated
scared
threatened
of you

No communication
In the end, wednesday night will have no plans
Or rather nothing, for me
No nothing

This time,
i guess i know that i am being ignored

P.S. Phuket will probably suck now to find the money 1 day before

Mandy Girl

Met up with Amanda today over lunch
@ Ichiban Boshi @ Suntec
its been so long since i last saw this sweetie
she was the best friend i had in ntu, out of hall
who is always there to motivate and mug with
since Yr 1 Sem 1
before i officially M-I-A-ed from school...

4 years later
We have both grown up,
& prettier~ (at least for her)
meeting with her really cheered me up a little
talked about school, past, guys, boyfriends, relationships,career,wealth & the idea of being rich

She got the iPhone~
i was swaying between the idea of an iPhone & the HTC Touch Diamond..
i think i will still lean towards the iPhone now =)
$$$$$ please come to me ~~

Super Blue Monday

Being lonely is nothing to be crapped about
not necessarily true
but a personal promise
not to escalate
not worthed

The feeling of being alone
or being walked out of
seems to suck less from time to time
to learn to say no
is a difficult lesson to learn
yet easy one to get hit upon

HellBoy2
The Golden Army
would say it has pretty lots of action
storyline, alright
Interesting parts time to time
though not exactly captivating

Walk & Walk
now my legs are red & sore
but at the end of the day
only but have got ownself to blame

P.S. : it is always nice to have someone around

10.07.2008

When you lay down your emotional baggage and take on the world with a different angle
a certain sense of inner peace is sought

in the last 2 days
it really felt that i really worked my time off

July seems a more promising month for work
May not be fantastic
but definitely promising & encouraging
Hope everything settles before the Phuket trip coming thursday

Thanks Rooney for being there to go out with =)

A thursday night
Esplanade's distant crowd
Harry's Bar
Red Sangria
too sweet to be bitterly-sweet
the feeling of wind
the quiet ECP

弃

生活方式因人而变
可能是一群人, 或者是一个人
在八个月前
我的生命似乎注定要改变

一公布我找回快乐了
马上又跌入谷地

从被嫌弃的世界中
走出自重

1 nite 1 day

No news
No contact

I guess
I have really been forgotten

Does it matter if you feel sore
or even feel depressed
when actually the person beside you
had struck the chance of getting out of this mess

the fragility

i did it again
time & again
it is harder to control the emotions

a stressed up state
a desperate struggle
a tight situation
a friend is just a phone call away

alone till the wee hours in the morning
thinking & thinking
mentally chiding

friends are always friends
colleagues are always just colleagues
as much as there is no typical politics
there are hypocracy

in the end
it is just a problem i created
that i only have myself to face up to
depending on others always falls back
and it is bad that it is a money situation

i want to back out
but can i
i want to enjoy
but could i
i want to be alone
but do i really wan to

never mix money with work
do i really want to
or do i really have a choice

acting based on emotions
to survive in this career
i have to be strong
be cruel
be harsh
to the people around me
those
who are not my friends

skip the gatherings
skip the unnecessary socialising
will it really work
maybe it might
although it is not me
to save myself from misery
to find people whom i can call friends
outside of work

so tell me now
if i can avoid the next 2 weeks
how can i survive the 4days in Phuket

for every action
every decision
there is a consequence
consequence do not incur threats
yet
consequences drives ppl crazy
thinking of the stupidity of actions