Tuned to Class95 now.

I feel better
I feel changed

for the last 2 days
i fell asleep with the radio on
i can no longer stand the silent night

for the last 2 days
i had to be pretty alone
and alone for tomorrow as well

am i feeling better?
i seriously do not know
since the last entry
there have been calls, pats, to console
and to find out how have i been
its deeply appreciated

but the angel in my heart is still too weak
to stand against the devil

i can laugh
but i cant smile from my heart
i can drag myself off bed to office
just to ruin my day
i can do 101 nice things
but it only takes 1 to spoil a rapport
i can shout & cry
but it will not mean anything for someone who don't care

today was a bad day

the friend who should at least bother, do not
those who should just leave me alone, do not

my eyes are so tired now
its almost impossible for me to continue handling the intensive emotional pressure