A ball not held, but juggled, through the highs and lows

the saying goes...

when things are already at its worst, it can only get better..

do i feel that now?
i dunno
how would i know if its the worst now?
though it is pretty horrible

last night was bad.
very bad.
outflow of emotions
from everyone.
to everyone.

today?

woke up with a bad stomach wrenching for nth
i had no appt, no work
but had to go office for submission

from 1230pm till 1140pm
full 11 hours of?

from Amk --> Bukit Merah --> Eunos office --> GE HQ --> Bukit Timah --> Woodlands --> Bedok --> Bukit Merah --> Amk

it wasnt exactly early,
wasnt late also
but i din wan to force anyone to go out with me anymore

since yesternight
i know i cant get any lower than what i already changed to be

a person can be insensitive
but when one wants to meet the other for particular thing
he/she will sms the party
he/she will think of the thing
he/she will find out the details

but when one party forces the other to do sth
the party will say "See How"
"See how things go, See how is the mood, See how i can find more excuse"

Prospect let us earn money
Clients give us business
So?

Your client set time, they get to know when to meet
Your friends call to jio, they get to know u steady or not
Your gf one call, immediately tomorrow night is taken
I asked ten times
all is See How.

I get to hang out just because i tag along,
just because i offer to send
just because i can be a time filler

If i had a litre of tears
its draining out real fast

can someone really bring me out because he want to bring me out?