心

人往往在心情指数最低点时, 才最需要朋友
我不喜欢这样.
心情糟糕, 只要有朋友陪伴就是很好的知己,
雨过天晴, 工作心情轻松, 多说就变成烦人的苍蝇.

越想就越觉得自己好像很愚
决定什么事, 从不三思, 就胡里胡涂地做
是幼稚吗? 还是单纯的天真?

那, 做了决定后又处于半后悔状态又表示什么..
是三心二意? 还是没信心不会因自己一时的鲁莽而从中受到伤害?

自问, 值不值得, 也说不上来,
付出就想得到回报,
牺牲就想得到补偿,
伤心就想得到关怀,
失望就想得到安慰,
害怕就想受到保护,
开心就想与人分享,

我以为我能够非常潇洒, 拿得起就放得下,
但也许哪怕最坚强得人也会有脆弱的一面.

那渴望着不切实际关怀的小心灵,哭了.

呐喊是为了宣泄,
沉默是为了妥协,
失望是为了让步,
暗泣是为了忍耐,
哭泣为了要同情.

那眼神,那语调, 并非我所应得的.

Feeling pathetic is becoming part and parcel of my life
I am not entitled to expect, for I am just nothing.
I am not entitled to be angry, for I am still just nothing.
I am not worth talking to in the soft tone, for I am really just nothing.

I think I just want to find someone to love and who loves me
If Jeremy was still part of my life,
Things might not have gone so bad