一个女人脆弱的一面

My recent life is getting more and more sad..



1) i think i got possibility can't graduated in time

2) i think my work ain't too good considering so many cork ups

3) i think my people relation management is getting so lousy



Sihui told me i should consider getting a proper 9-5 job... like during my attachment

1) i looked more radiant

2) i feel happier

3) i am more guai

4) i smile more

5) i meet right people

6) i actually saved more money

7) i spend more time at home



Why i might prefer my current job?

1) higher money potential

2) flexibility

3) slackability

4) can take on more night life

5) meet people who live like my lifestyle (who are also termed as "wrong" people)



In most cases, life is not about justification...

if it is, then base on the above i should just quit and settle for my typical engineer/watever office job with my $2.7-$3k salary...

then set aside that $300-$500/month of savings to do my 'financial planning' and retire at 65..



but i am not doing it.

in fact, i do not want to just live it like this.

but am i walking the correct path for myself? even i cant answer that.



many says that i have changed, not in the good sense

many says that i don't look happy as before, which is quite true

then, why am i still hanging on to this life?

i can have only one answer



犯贱



i think thats what i am now.



school wise- screwed

work wise- screwed

relationship wise-screwed



this is what we call... triple screwed. how nice~



yesterday i half-broke down in front of my friend.

i can't actually believe it myself.

but it happened.



a women can be satisfied in 3 aspects

- physically, emotionally, financially



if at least 2 out of 3 is fulfilled, a woman can be generally still.... sound.



as a boyfriend, i view physical & emotional more importantly... meaning i don't need him to pay for my everything...

but not as a soulmate.
if you can't accept my emotions, satisfy me financially.
maybe that will just help me feel better.