another wasted day

it's yet another wasted..

went to pay respect to my paternal grandparents and my dad today ...
talked alot to my mom today ... coz we were caught in the rain therefore stuck inside the bus..

talked about life, money, career & *financial planning* haha

i postponed 1 appt..
the other appt postponed me...
confirmed the last appt..
later today 8pm at northpoint..

had a simple lunch,
tried to study but failed.
took a short nap...

my cousin came to visit me..
talked alot again..
about life, money, career & more money-making opportunities
i realised i lost some good opportunities..

this is the N-th time already...
cause i haven official go secure all my relatives & friends to be my clients...
because i'm too busy,
because they dunno,
i lose chances again

& so another day wasted... now i lost ALL mood to study ..
if i fail this time round...
people will not pity me..
coz i kindof asked for it..
but..
i dont feel the fear at all now..

*i'm blinded*