e.m.o elvina

i am a very weird person.

once i start to be emotional, it doesnt stop that easily

now is the case.


ever since the incident on wednesday night,

i was emo on thursday for the whole day

- i dunwan to work
- i dunwan to talk
- i dunwan to eat much

- i wan to drink
- i wan to wallow
- i wan to cry

thursday night was with soulmate.. all the way till friday night

still emo

- still dunwan to work
- still dunwan to talk much
- still dunwan to eat much

- still very much wan to drink
- still wan to get sympathy
- still cried

den my soulmate was in foul mood too, which makes my mood even more foul
- in the end, he still din come

he called on saturday which was better
- played game at home
- den he go play MJ, MIA till today


i guessed i'm still very much in a lousy mood still
- asked him for movie jus now
- ask what, where, who
- in the end give the answer of not sure
- & i got pissed
- den he got pissed

this few days were really bad
i dunno what am i becoming
it's as though i have no one to talk to
it's as though i am bothering my soulmate
it's as though its always i being by his side when he needs someone but not for me
maybe i should have someone more problem-free to care for me

i really dun feel appreciated at this point of time