relieved confusion

childhood was precious

teenage i'm always envious

adulthood is vicious

as we grow up

we lose our innocence

exchanged it for reality

and really harsh ones

we devote almost 2 decades to education

or rather forced into this situation

with which we obtained theoretical knowledge

without knowing the cruelty of society

many have worked

many have cried

many could not handle

be it stress, scoldings or politics

i used to be such a crybaby

since the early sec sch days

when i felt the world should be ideal

everyone should be nice

of course

i was wrong

things really changed during NTU

i got my name

Elvina

i got stronger

i cried lesser as i faced more difficulties in life

i grew brave

as i stand up to more unjust

i got practical

as i see the harsh facts of life

i see relationships

varsely different from how many would forsee

it's the practicality sense as well

by now many know

i have a soulmate

i dun love my soulmate

but he is important to me in a way

a good listener

advisor

nice friend

wonderful companion

and probably

yes,i did made sacrifices for him

and i do get upset at times

but its just my nature

to be nice to people

i know my 2008 resolution

was to get a proper relationship

in a way

might mean not having soulmate

but i do appreciate him

work is No. 1

gf is No. 2

i might not be top

but at least i'm somewhere 3rd

at least i do get my treats

my gift

and my reimbursements

i do get the times during weekdays

and i do get the calls after the No. 2

because i dun love him

i dun need to have him

thats y i am contented

to have this kind of small concern

with these

i felt almost like

i might not need to find that special someone so urgently