Evolving E.L.

i have changed much again.

over the past days, weeks, months... i have become very out-going, very sociable, very cheerful

or so it seems.

My coming 3.5 years in NTU have seen me changed from a quiet, introvert alike person who suck in presentations and people mingling to a devastated soul with gloomy outlook of the future to now a person with confidence, mingles with just anyone, ability to speak out more openly and be more friendly.

In short, i am dying to expand my social circle now.
I dunno if it's got to do with my job nature now. but yes, this is how i feel i have changed.

although i am still a student and although its only slightly less than a month to exam.
i totally dun feel it. i dun want to study. i dun have the time. i dun wan to be cooped up at home at any time of the day.

what am i doing?
am i not getting my priorities right? or am i just dying to jump out of the finally ending education routine?

i was nua-ing at home yesterday for the whole day and thought about some stuff.
i am so busy, till the fact i feel empty at many times. Why?

I always tot i knew what i want, like i wanted to definitely go to Europe for my grad trip.
but yesterday, I felt like I wanted to go do some volunteer work. Or backpack around some third world countries.
is anyone on to go together? haha

My mom laughed. Yes, how am i to survive in those places with my eating habits.
thats also whats been stopping me.
maybe i should really give it a serious thought.

i learnt this phrase just the other day:
- do not be afraid to pursue ur own dreams, for the correct man will come along to share those same dreams

it's time i become more self-centered and not trying hard to please others